Interview!!

Happy Happy Happy...
Got my first job interview coming!!
Mixed feelings is what I'm going through now...
Excited, nervous, scared...
after all this is my first permanent job interview!!
questions keep running through my head...
am kinda worried alittle as my foot hasn't quite healed properly...
how am i gonna wear shoes???
ahhhh...
got to prepare myself for it...
any advice anyone on attending interviews????

Island Cafe

I must say...it was like god sent...
Met up w Yew Jin last night...
the same place we met up last yr...
Island Cafe, ss2...
I was quite happy that we met up...
It turns out his company has vacancies!!
Good news for me...
He told me he would speak to his boss first...
and today he called asking me to send my CV to his boss...
Just sent it.. am keeping my fingers cross...
am praying hard that I do get a chance at this...
needed badly the change in life...
am just praying to God & hoping for the best!!!

**peace out** ( ^o^ v )

Today

Job hunting is never fun when you have no sense of direction.
Surf surf surf...
was what I did the whole day...
sent a couple of applications...
now awaiting for their replies...

keeping fingers cross...
hope that there'll be some good news soon...

hmm...feeling hungry now...
gonna fix something to eat...

Wish

I was surfing through TheStar Online when I came across a beautiful poem written by Nethani Palmani. I hope you will like it too!


Wednesday September 10, 2008

Wish

What to wish
What a wish
I lived the wish
That I couldn’t wish for
Comfort on frustrating days
Smiles when sadness intrude
Patience to accept the truth
Courage to know myself
Confidence for when I doubt
Faith so that I can believe
Friendships to melt my heart
Hugs when spirit sag
Beauty for my eyes to watch
Rainbows to follow the clouds
And love to complete my life.

But what would I wish for
Would I wish to dream
As if I’ll live forever
Or live as if I’ll die today
Would I wish to live
Or to love first and live incidentally.

And to wish is to risk pain
For everything I have wished
That I gained something
But for everything
I gain I lose something.

Life is full of wish I noticed it
Which is a way of holding on
To the things I love
To the things I am
The things I never want to lose
Because one day somehow
My life will flash before my eyes
And I am to make sure
It’s worth wishing.

8 Become 1

Another compilation by Norwegian Recycling!

Watch it... =)

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How 6 Songs Collide

Check out this cool video clip... A compilation of 6 songs into an awesome record by Norwegian Recycling!

I love it! I love it! I love it!

The Pain

Everyday I wake up with worries in my head…
When will it ever heal…
It’s been 2 weeks now & today is the 3rd day after taking off the stiches but why does it still hurts as if the operation was only yesterday…
It’s taking longer than usual to heal…when will it go away?
It’s turning black & blue…is this a good sign?
I’m just worried that there’ll be complications…
Oh how I miss my daily life…
Oh how I miss the food…
Oh how I miss jumping around, moving around freely….
I can no longer do that…for now…
The pain is irksome & depressing….no one will understand…
When will my dear foot heal…
Coz it’s hurting very badly…
Pain pain pain…

In Your Eyes

There’s something in the look of your eyes, when you left today..
There’s something in the look of your face when you were trying to say…
I couldnt quite make up..
but something’s telling me that you have changed…

The look on your face, I’ll always remember
The look of your eyes, I’ll always treasure
You left without saying goodbye
Something that you have never done before
You look different today…

Is it just me or have the both of us changed?
There’s something in the look of your eyes, when you left today…
There’s something in the look of your face… I wish it all could go away…

A Day Out From Home

Yeay!!

I managed to go out today after 5 days of home ‘imprisonment’ due to my foot operation. No..I can’t walk just yet but with the help of 2 walking sticks I’m able to move around just fine (although at times it can be very tiring & painful). I didnt go to many places but managed to accomplish a couple of things while I was out.

My dear teddy bear came over to pick me up about after lunch & we headed back to Subang for a hair cut. As usual the salon that my dear teddy goes to, is very busy & we had to wait for 20 minutes before we could be served. So instead of waiting, we went over to Asia Cafe for a drink & had some titbits. Right after that, we headed back to the salon and waited for our turn. Well, I must say it’s the longest wait for me in a salon as it took about 4 hours before everything was done ( the waiting, the washing & the cutting for both me & my dear teddy). Yes…I decided to cut my hair short! Ta Da…. after having long hair for so many years I decided to chop it off & get a new look. Hmm… frankly my new hairstyle looks like a mushtoom. I couldnt quite accept the my new style but I am slowly adapting to it… =) As for my dear teddy bear’s hair cut, it was just nice…just as how he wanted - the japanese guy hairstyle. Well to me I think, when a guy goes for a hair cut, it can never go wrong coz it’s already short. It all depends on how you style it. =)

So right after the hair cut, we went straight home to dear teddy’s house & wash up. Took a nap for abit & later we were out again heading to Ping Suang’s house near Kg Jawa. It’s his daughter’s full moon today. Gosh I must say the baby (her name is Adeline by the way) was so little & cute. I got the chance to carry her in my arms..Just heaven. All I can say it made my day. Saw Patrick & Alvin there, had some conversation about rock climbing, my foot operation etc. After that, we left & started heading back home to my dear teddy’s place again to collect some dvd & he drove me back to my house….

And so it is. That’s the end of my adventure for today…To sum it up, I’m contented & happy & tired…. =)

Hurt

My eyes are hurting coz I can’t see you,
My arms are empty coz I can’t hold you and in be in your embrace,
My lips are cold coz I can’t kiss you,
But what hurts the most is my Heart…
because I miss you so very much…
Is it too much of me to ask you to come visit me when I am down??
Is it too much of me to ask you to pamper me when I’m not happy?
Is it too much of me to ask you to give me a little bit of your time when I am not well?
Have you not have a thought of just coming over to see me to make my day better??
Will it be too much for me to ask you to just come over and hold me in your arms and never let go??

Wise Words From The Aboriginals

I find this phrase very inspiring. It is taken from an Australian documentary which I helped during my Uni days. I hope you will find it inspiring too...

"We are all born of different skin / but it doesn’t matter if we canbegin / to celebrate life and all that means / and we must not beafraid to live our dreams / come together everyone / where the moonmeets the sun."

-Archie Roach, Liyarn Ngarn 2007-

The Lost Generation Brothers

Lost & Found

Sometimes, people can go missing right before our very eyes.
Sometimes, people discover you, even though they’ve been looking at you the entire time.
Sometimes, we loose sight of ourselves when we’re not paying enough attention.

We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control.
When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself.
Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves; the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning.
Sometimes, we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it’s easier.
Sometimes, we find our own way out.
But regardless, always, we are found.


**taken from a book entitled "A Place Called Here" by Cecelia Ahern**

Nothing Last

As hard as I tried not to think about it, it became very obvious that I couldn’t live without it. Not after all the tears, joy, laughter and sweat that I stored in it. Memories and hard work of years just vanish in a blink of an eye. I may have exaggerated but no word can help describe how I feel now. The song by Brian McKnight "One Last Cry" could best describe the emotions I am experiencing..

I am actually mourning for the "death" of my beloved external hard drive. It is today that I realized something important. Nothing really last or stay forever. As hard and as you may try to protect the things or ones you love, somehow something will come up and snatch it away from you.

Scripts, photos, videos & past work. I lost all of these today. It felt like someone had taken the soul out of me and what’s left is just my frail body. A part of me died today bringing along all the 5-6 years of memories. Important stuff which I thought I kept well in this loving hard drive of mine are all gone. Nothing could ever replace the things I kept in that hard drive of mine. All I could do now is pray and hope that whoever found or took it will return it back to me. Anything…anything just please bring back my hard drive to me..

I shall mourn for you till you return into my arms again.. =(

When I'm With You

When I am with you..
I feel free..
When I am with you..
I’m like a different person..
And I forget all my problems and worries
In actual fact…
I really wanted to be with you..
To protect you from injury…
If only you knew...
How I feel for you deep down in my heart…
Would you give me a second chance?


**Inspired by Korean Drama Full House Series"**

IF

If..
It is the word I hate most in the world.
This might be late…
But it doesn’t matter.
Ever since I met you..
It is something I have thought about alot.
If…I had the chance first…
If…You have met me first…
If…You haven’t been taken by someone else
If I do get the chance back..
Then let’s not let go of it…
So I thought if the relationship that you are in isn’t real…
Then it is not yet late for me to make a move, am I right?
Won’t you give me a chance as well?

I Like You

To give you this gift, I hesitated alot.
I like you very much.
Today hear me out first.
It seems you’re always the one talking and I’m listening.
I’ll be the one talking today.
I thought about things…
I wondered…
It is not because of vanity
or my greed that I like you
But it is because I really like you.
Even when you don’t feel the same way,
Even when I know I will get hurt,
Just a little more,
Just a little more and it’ll be fine..
is what I had believed…
and how I have waited.
But…after all these…
I think I should stop this now.
Even though I like you very much,
But I kind of respect myself too.
So I want to take care of myself.
For all your kindness,
For all the gifts you’d send,
Your warm greetings and your worries for me,
And also for all your jokes…
Thank you for everything..
I won’t forget them.
When ever I see your face,
I think I can be happy.
You will always be in my memory.
Afterall, I have always like you…very much…

Teka-Teki

I’ve never seen your face,
Yet I kiss it everyday,
You can see me all around you,
In the treetop’s where I play.

What am I?

I Do Not Know

I do not know how long will I live on this planet Earth,
I do not know how long I will face problems in life
I do not know when my cough will heal
I do not know what my future looks like
I do not know who will be my soul mate
I do not know what lies ahead of me
I do not know if this would even last
I do not know where my career is heading
I do not know what I really want in life

I am lost.

All I know is I have my lovely family who will support me through good & bad
All I know is I am surrounded by friends who care for me
All I know is that nothing is impossible in this world if you try hard enough
All I know is time will heal a broken heart
And most importantly, all I know now is I have you in my life
and I thank God every second of the day
for sending me an angel to guide me through the way.

I’m glad I found you!

I Love You!

Thought of the Day

" Don’t look out for love, let it come to you."

" Don’t be afraid to love and be loved."

" A person who does not know how love a person is not worthy to be loved"

- Ade Low, 2007 -

Good Virtues

As I was browsing through some websites, I came across this interesting blog which somehow relate to how I generally perceive relationships and trust..Although I do not entirely agree to what this writer wrote, still it represented a part of me..So have a read and if you have anything to comment about it, please feel free to do so..

Cheers! ^^v

July 10

Good Virtues

Wise men have spoken a lot of about the importance being honest. Also; in any relationships…there is also the importance of being sincere. Truth sometimes hurts but…it also helps you from hurting someone or even loose trust with someone. To me…I don’t find any reasons for telling lies to anyone. It’s just simply because…in the end I don’t want to bury myself with endless lies.

To earn the trust of any person…is far precious than gold…but to loose it…is like dripping water in desert. Once you loose the trust…it’s very hard to get it back. I have earlier mentioned in several instances of being careful of the people you meet. Not all you see is gold. It’s the intent of the people…which makes what they are. Cunning and conniving people always have bad intent in their mind…as they always have plots to hurt another person.

There is an old biblical saying “…A friend hurts you only because he loves you…but bewares of an enemy who puts his arms around your neck…” Honestly…it’s very hard to know what the real intent of the person…until we either fall prey to a bad person…or benefit the goodness of a kind person. The worse people I hate the most…is people who exploit the goodness of a good person. I myself…got exploited with such people…and because of them…several times…I hated myself…for being good. Just because you are polite…some people think you are dumb…or don’t know how to say anything back. These people simply don’t understand…politeness. Then again…another important virtue is…forgiving.

To forgive someone especially when the person commits a mistake intentionally or not…is truly a rare virtue. You don’t have to be a magnanimous person to forgive someone. I know sometimes…people crosses limits…and they end up hurting you so much…that even such heavy hearts…to forgive that person…is not possible. I even don’t have words to express as I even faced such people. Some of my concept of goodness is…like when you help someone…never expect any favours in return…but the only thing you asked for…is that person not to hurt you. Imagine you helped someone…and you don’t want anything in return…but that person treats you with disrespect, contempt and above all insults you in front of everyone…only because you helped that bad person.

Well…I faced with such people and even worse than them. I honestly hate such people…as they are even far worse than vagabonds, deceivers, liars and boasters. I call such people…as Parasites. There are no better words for them. Like real Parasites…they suck you dry…till there is nothing left in you…and once (because of them) you’re left with nothing…they’ll abandon you…and insult you. My advice…Once you realise these kinds of people…STAY AWAY FROM THEM!!! True…everywhere you go…it’s hard to find a real nice person. It’s even harder to be ourselves especially when you are faced with such despicable people.
I used to think hard as to should I be good…or be bad because of I got hurt helping bad people…then came the question in my mind “What will the world do…when good people does nothing?” This question brought to me so much of happiness and more importantly the importance of being of who you are. Just because you suffered the consequences of being hurt by a bad person…doesn’t mean…you must be bad. Still be your self. Think of yourself…like a small ray of light…at the end of a very dark tunnel. Also; when you do good things…people around you notices…and they too will do good things. Again…Its Karma…when you do good things…good things happen to you. Again…there is a biblical proverb which says “…Never overcome good…by doing evil…but overcome evil…by doing good". A good example is…A Doctor who knows that medically the patient will die soon…so with a ray of hope…he lies to the patient that…he will surely live. Why? Only because of the little ray of hopes that the Doctor instils in the patient’s belief that the patient will live. If you see…Doctor’s lie…is bad in both morally and job ethics…but he is doing this for a good purpose…in saving the life of a patient.

Then again comes to the question of respect. To me earning respect, money and trust…are very important. Both have similar powers…and if you loose them…is like dripping water in the desert. You earn your respect through your commitment and devotion to the attainment of anything you want to achieve. Our education is our shield. The more you are educated…the better you are respected. Profession to me is the best respect you can get through education. What’s the difference between profession and normal jobs? Emm…Can an medical Doctor’s job be done by anyone?…Or Can an Engineer’s job be done by anyone?…or Can an Chartered Accountant’s job be done by anyone? Every education broadens our understanding in different aspects of a subject. Very few people go beyond…for their never ending quench for knowledge. These kinds of people…specialise not only in one subject but try to learn as much as they can. The value of education is truly understood only by people…who have posses’ education…and especially the people who want to attain more knowledge. To me…foolish people, high school drop-outs, losers and vagabonds…always makes fun of an educated people… (…Some of them even say that your bachelors degree certificate you got from a nearby fish market and your masters degree certificate you got from 7-11 stores…) Why? Simply because…It’s hard to make sense to a fool. You don’t have to be a genius to attain knowledge. Just true devotion and commitment in what you want to achieve. Of course…you need to have the belief in yourself that “…Yes I can do it…” and always maintain your positive frame of mind.

Do you know Sir. Thomas A. Edison (inventor of light bulbs)…never attended school? In fact…when he was young…he got poor grades in his school days. His teacher got so fed up with his poor grades that the teacher told Edison’s Mom to stop sending him to school…only because he is not academically proficient enough…but Edison’s Mom never cared. She said to the teacher “…I never give up on my son…I know he is very intelligent…and he’ll grow up to be a very important respected person…”. Look what happened…! Our education…makes us understand the virtues in life. It’s for our education that helps us know what’s good and bad. Education enhances our knowledge, understanding about a certain aspects and more importantly…helps us be better persons.

I know I am diverting myself a bit from mentioning about the virtues like being honest and sincere. Being with innumerable relationships with my ex-gfs; I have learnt a lot about being sincere and honesty in a relationship. Most guys have the same problem which is commitment issues. When a handsome guy meets a pretty girl…he thinks of having a one night stand with her. If he thinks…she’s good to be his gf…then the gf-bf relationship pops out…but to the pretty girl…she’ll think her new bf…as her long time partner. The harsh reality…again is when the guy meets an even prettier girl…he’ll probably break up with his gf…and go out with the new girl. The whole thing revolves around…the guy being sincere and honest…with his gf. I find different girls…have different outlook to a relationship with their guys. Well…it could be the cultural factor or religious beliefs. Still…in my understanding…no matter how much the guys cheats on the girls…most of the girls still stick with their guys…for the sake of love. Very few guys are truly sincere and honest with their girls.

Again…being sincere and honest can be with different relationships. You have to be sincere and honest with your friends. Why? Simply because…Your friends trusts you. Your friends have trust in you that…you’ll be with your friends at times of happiness or sadness…or at times of your friends need of your help…Also; your friend in turn be there for you at times of your need for help, happiness or sadness. Well…No one can imagine a friend who betrays you! Worse of all…someone who becomes your friend…just because you have something that person needs…wealth, intelligence or even health!…and later betrays you…after that person gets what they want from you!

There are many things I hate…one thing I surely hate are liars and deceivers. To me liars, deceivers, boasters and vagabonds all belong to the same breath. I just condemn such people. Like what’s rightly mentioned in the Holy Bible “Respectful people never lies”. You see…when we do good or bad things…all reflects on our family…and also how we are being raised by our family. It’s very important for us to be good. Why?…It’s because when we do good things to the people who benefited the goodness from us…they’ll surely say “…you’re good person…so Dad and Mom are even better persons…”. There is nothing better than to bring more admiration and respect for our lovely family. We are the mirror to our family…and we reflect our family image to whoever we meet.

Lastly; again with regards to respect…I don’t like living under the shadow of my father’s respect or my family respect. My father worked hard to earn his education…and reputation as a good person which earned his respect. I don’t want people to me know under my father’s name…but I want my father to be known under my name. I know that my Dad…is highly proud of me…when people know him…through my name. When we were young…it’s an honour and admiration for us…to be known under our fathers and family names…but once we are mature…we have to earn our own respect. After all…Respect, Education and Trust…alongside with money…brings you good recognition and image in front of anyone. In order to get these 3…we must learn to inculcate within us good virtues…like honesty, courteousness, friendliness, empathy and the willingness to learn knowledge.

~Taken from a.k.a James Bond 007 (msn)~

As I Mature

A friend of mine forwarded an email to me. I found it very humorous and just wanna share it with you guys! Hope it enlightens your day! Enjoy!!

As I Mature
I’ve learnt that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them,and hopefully they panic & give in.

I’ve learnt that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes.

I’ve learnt that it takes years to build up trust,

and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I’ve learnt that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.

After that you’d better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I’ve learnt that you shouldn’t compare yourself to others,

they are more screwed up than you think.

I’ve learnt that you can keep vomiting long after you think you’re finished.

I’ve learnt that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I’ve learnt that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,

the passion fades,and there had better be a lot of money to take its place!

I’ve learnt that 99% of the time when something isn’t working in your house,

one of your kids did it.

I’ve learnt that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.

Tough Shit!

~annonymous~

On The Rocks

Stoned.

Worried.

Work.

Dramatic.

Mixed emotions.

Fragile.

Lost.

Sometimes things happened for a reason.
Like it or not, you have no choice but to face it.
No matter what,
you can’t run neither can you hide from it.
Somehow, it will catch up and haunt you.

A lesson learnt today..
"Take one step at a time, grab every opportunity to be happy & treasure every second of it."

Time for my bedtime.

Good night & sweet dreams.

Realized

I realized something today...

I realized that there is sunlight after a stormy weather...

I realized that the stars are more beautiful in the dessert..

I realized that the sound of the waves can calms me just instantly...

I realized that you can count on your friends when you are in trouble..

I realized that my family is the most important thing in my life..

I realized that time is passing by very fast..

I realized that I am not growing any younger..

I realized that I cant keep running away from problems..

I realized that the world is a cold & a cruel place to be in..

I realized that life is too short to regret anything in life..

I realized that I dont know what I want in life as well...

I realized that I am not as strong as I used to think I am..

I realized that I am but just an ordinary girl next door..

I realized that I just want to live a simple and happy life..

I realized that I think & worry too much sometimes..

I realized that I need to get a way..

away from work for a while...a vacation..

I realized that for a long time already...

I realized I really need a break from everything..

But most importantly...

Today, I realized that..when you lose a person..

a person who is most dear to you..

then only will you realized how much this person means to you...

and then there is no turning back...

because of one mistake...

that one mistake that changes your entire life..

I wish you enough

I wish you enough..

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright
no matter how gray the day may appear.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

It takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them but then an entire life to forget them.

~annonymous~

A Beginner

Hello...Ni Hau Ma?
Frankly, I do not know what to write.
Am not a blogger...never was one.
Had too much time in hand, so decided to create something.
I love writting. But I write when I am in the mood.
Love poetry.
So this is it.
A beginner in blogging.
A heaRt~beat is born.